so im able to control myself from bloggin every single dae since last sat. quite proud of myself, i hav to sae. since then quite a few things hav happen in my life. shall not elaborate on them as i juz dun feel like it. some r good while some r bad, but mostly bad.... Which cause my mind to be like whirling everytime i tink of it lar. =(

got back all of my term test pprs. very2 disappointed wif the results..f*ck lar!! but its expected lar. since that period is juz not the rite time for test. all my fault lar!! but wad the hell, i dun care abt my studies alredy. but wen i tink of something, i feel guilty. urrgghh.. hate tis feelin. esp when u want to do something u wan but the ones who suffer is not you. it really keep me tinkin for awhile.



when problems present itself to a person, that person usually face it bravely. tats wad the majority wld do. for those in the minority, they wld hide and run away from the problem. its not bcoz they are scared but bcoz they tink they are unable to do anytink to solve the problem.
this applies to me. all the problems started quite recently, abt few mths ago. one after one problems starts to surface. n when a problem is nt yet solve, came another one. den came another one. to me, it seems that they wld nvr stop coming. i tried to face it but its too hard. bcoz mayb i havent reallie faced any problem b4 all tis started. now, i feel lyke its all happenin too soon and fast. so, wad did i do?? i recently started to bury myself in loads and loads of songs and immersed myself in readin a book. coz i knew i cld do nth to improve the situation, mayb i can but i havent figure out how. the more i tink of it, the more im feelin depressed of it. so why bother to tink?? rite?? in other words, im tryin to run away from the problems as far as possible. and putting a fake smile while doin tat. :S




so, i juz finished reading a book. juz started to read it yest n im done wif it alredy. its reallie been awhile since i read. the last time i guz was abt few mths ago. the book is called ' Rubber gloves or Jimmy Choos?. its by faith bleasdale. its a typical gurl book where a gurl's life, ruth, change after a heart-breaking realtionship tat doesnt work out. it turns out tat it is a one-sided affair. (hmm, tis seems so familiar) so, it shows how her life took a bad turn after the break-up. i quite enjoy readin tis book as i cld relate to some parts of the story. still, it makes tink of the past. Ohh.. Wadever!! niwae, will post part of the story soon aite?

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