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Sunday, January 14, 2007

actually dun wan to blog now. but sumtink agitate me to do so. hmmph!!

they say "in life, use ur brain not ur heart". i originally tink tat is simple. onlie now did i realised how hard it is. i tot i've moved on but when i saw d pic, all my emotions came pourin back. a mixture of hate, jealousy, hurt, etc. now i noe how difficult it is to control emotions. to tell d truth, i dunno wad im feelin rite now.
like these sentences quote," The human heart is a fragile animal: once broken, it does nt take kindly to attempts at repair. It's like a self-healing wound. It mends by itself so there is no point in pushing it." it is soo true. i took it from d book i've been reading. but i onlie gt one qn. how long will it take to repair a broken heart? its been more than a mth, to be exact 6 wks, but i still feel d hurt. mayb it will never heal properly. i dunno.
been cryin once awhile. usually cry myself to bed. so no one will noe. act if i cry oso, no one will care n i dun need anione's care. =(

i feel like im carryin quite a lot of burden by myself. i dunno how long i can last wif all these prob tied to my body. one day, i may juz explode!! seriously. ppl tink im a strong gurl, but i noe myself well enuf tat i cnnt handle everytink alone. but there's no one i can share wif it animore. so i guz i juz hav to try to last as long as possible. *fingers crossed*

i notice another change in myself. ive been late to everywhere i go. even to skool. tat is soo unlike me. last time, im alwayz d one who will be on time n waitin for other ppl. but now, im alwayz late. late to lect, tut n even labs. in fact, as i was late for lab, i even skip it. and d lab start at 12!! i actually woke up 5 mins to 12!! was lyke panickin lar. den decide to skip it. wth?!
but to contradict myself, i used to hate ppl tat is late. den a few mths ago, i kind of change. i dun mind waitin for him, even if he was rarely late. but now, im back to myself again. i realised tat is not worth to change urself for sumone.

so, my life hav been borin lyke normal. early mornin go to skool den stay at skool till late b4 goin home. even if i finish early, i wld still be in skool doin stuffs. coz dun wan to go home as i feel there's no use. usually i will be alone in my room.

b4 i forget, i wanna thank mya for the bdae gift. even if its belated. thx again 4 d pencil box and accessories. u reallie noe wad i need. heh. tats my first present from a fren since i start poly. reallie2 appreciate it!! talkin abt bdae, cant help but to remember d time wen me n mya give ika his present. its too funny to forget. its too long to explain here. if wanna noe, ask mya for the video! yup, we record d whole thing wif mya's camera. damn funny lar!!

ok lar, i'll take my leave with another quote:
"Change is not always invited, sometimes it just gatecrashes your life." by Faith Bleasdale.

ishldntcareorwonderwherenhowyouare.

buticanthelpit,ithurtinsidemybrokenheart.

imfightingbackemotionstatinvrfoughtb4.

cozimnotsupposedtoloveyouanimore.

butistillhavtoadmit,istillmissyou!! <3


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