AARRGGHH!!!! My mind is gonna explode alredy!!!

when i wake up juz now, was feeling as normal. Den sumtink gt to happen!! Nowadays, even little things can blew me up. my temper hav been very short lately. due to that i hav been talkin in a rough manner to my mum. i juz cant help it. its like im a bomb ready to explode when the trigger is pulled off. now, im left alone at home. again, another factor that make me very short-tempered. i really need someone or something to vent out my anger to. but i dunno if there's anyone else tt i can trust. so, i kinda gt to suppress everything inside.

if you know me in the past, you noe that i cant get irritated easily. i noe tt myself too. but now, tt part of me hav changed. it cld be due to the recent blow i had. but tt, i only gt myself to blame. not you. but mayb i did feel a bit of anger and hatred towards you. but i hav the right to feel that way right?

seeing you again, kinda of remind me of the conversation we had on tt day. i cannt bear to look directly to your eyes, for fear i might juz break down again. i noe you tried to improve the situation. but after what you hav done, i dun think i need to listen to you animore!!



b4 i continue to vent my anger here, i noe i gotta to study. but i juz cant study at home anymore. mayb bcoz i was used to studying outside last semester. i wanted to study outside again. but tis time ill be alone. mya's away to malaysia n i dun tink i can face ika. i noe he'll will figure me out if he saw me in tis state. i may hav to study alone tmr. but where? our normal place? downtown? ill see how first...



well i gtg alredy... till later..

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